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I’ve Never Been Normal…

And this is no different.

Most people do not consider their ex a friend. Fewer still consider them their best friend.

Well I’m not called an odd duck for nothing, am I?

Me and Tinkerbell are still very close, we’ve had our ups and downs but I know that if I ever needed help she would do all she could and I would do the same for her. Basically all that’s changed is that we don’t have romantic feelings for each other.

I look back on the early part of the summer where I actually thought I could stop loving her and have to shake my head. I was miserable and guilty and, all in all, not that fun a person to be around. Then Eva sat me down and told me flat-out that I didn’t have it in me not to love someone who meant so much to me. I tried to explain that it was wrong of me to feel that way when she asked me why I thought I should be normal now when I never had been before. So I stopped stressing about it.

And lo and behold, I was much happier.

She taught me that I did deserve to be loved and that everyone deserves a second chance. It is her influence that is the reason why I am so forgiving now. She taught me to do all I can to keep my promises. She also beat into my head that I was not trash and that I actually am a good person. She would argue that and say I’m a wonderful person to which I respond “baby steps.” I have been truly blessed to have her in my life and wonder what I would do without her.

You kept me from killing myself and then helped me figure out who I was and I can never really repay you for that. Won’t stop me from trying though. You know better than anyone that I am nothing if not stubborn.

You try and say you are nothing special. I merely ask that you remember our motto: “Sometimes the way we see ourselves isn’t as true as the way others see us.”

You’re my best friend Tinkerbell, and I love you dearly.

Thank you for all you have done for me Darlin’.

And always remember…

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  1. Vanessa Rogers
    November 18, 2008 at 11:42 PM

    That is awesome that you still have such a great relationship! Good for you!

  2. Diane
    November 19, 2008 at 12:16 AM

    As Ryan told me recently, “Normal is vastly overrated.” I agree.

  3. Tricia
    November 19, 2008 at 12:27 AM

    I was still close friends with my ex-boyfriend from college for a long time. We kept in touch a long time after I moved away. Sadly, though, the last thing I heard from him was when I got a wedding invitation from him in the mail. That was about ten years ago now. My many attempts to get back in touch with him all these years have all gone unanswered.

    But I totally get where you’re coming from. I think it’s awesome you two are mature enough to realize that there was still a friendship there even if your romantic relationship drew to a close. Way to go!

  4. X.T.
    November 19, 2008 at 1:56 AM

    I thought I was going to marry the first boyfriend I ever had (mind you, I was 14), but then we broke up. Now, almost 6 years later, we’re practically BFFs.
    It’s so awesome when you can still be friends with your ex; you don’t have to hide anyting from them because they’ve seen you at your most vunerable of times, and they know you inside and out. I find I always go to my ex(s) when I have a serious problem.

  5. Falling Star
    November 19, 2008 at 3:06 AM

    That was a wonderful post. It made me want to cry all over again even though I have already heard the words before. I am proud of you and I love you. That will never change. It has been my pleasure to help you out and you know the rest of my thoughts.


  6. The Odd Duck
    November 19, 2008 at 3:59 AM

    Tinkerball – You had better love me. *smiles* And of course I know your thoughts, I’m in your head causing havoc every which way.

  7. M.Skut
    November 19, 2008 at 6:04 PM

    I’m friends with every ex I’ve ever had. I can’t just stop being someone’s friend… Not how it goes with me. My current boyfriend thinks it’s crazy, since he has cut all ties with everyone he’s dated. But I talk to them on a regular basis. Eh, I guess it’s just who we are…

  8. amindinmotown
    November 19, 2008 at 6:05 PM

    (Oops, posted that for Blogger, which I don’t actually use… My bad!)

  9. The Odd Duck
    November 19, 2008 at 8:59 PM

    Mindy – It’s all right dear, you’re getting up there in age. Just kidding, don’t kill me.

    You and me are very similar in that regard. Eva is only friends with one of her exes and even that is just acquaintance level.

  10. Katie
    November 21, 2008 at 2:29 AM

    i would be much more heartbroken to not be close friends with my ex! ex best friendships are highly underrated 🙂

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